Today Is Special - 13 Jun 2008

I was drinking morning, noon, and night and all the time in between. I had to drink or I would get VERY ill. When threatened to have my children taken away, I went to detox, which is a hideous place. I had DTS, hallucinated, the whole nine yards. It was hell to stay sober, but I did.

Today, is marks 20 years since that happened and I am proud of myself.

I know that should be enough, but it doesn't feel like enough. I have drifted away from my AA friends, and my family (except for my daughter who is having her own "issues" right now) doesn't talk to me. I don't think there is anyone who even knows what today is.

I am sorry and embarrassed for posting this. I just didn't want to be all alone today. I hope you don't mind.

You're never alone here Gloria.You should be very proud of your accomplishment as I'm sure ev1 here is.Maybe things will work out with your family.I'll keep you in my prayers.Be Strong!!!!

Happy Birthday Gloria....(That is what we tell my brother on the day that marks his first day of sobriety) You should be very very proud of what you have accomplished...You are never alone, you always have everyone here at CC...

Hugs

Robbin

Dear gjr1961,

Congratulations and here's to many more

Big Smiles make everything right

Love,
Geno x

Wowee......That is Soooooooooooooooo **AWESOME** & I'll Say It...........
"I'M PROUD OF YOU GLORIA!!!" Now, go get some "Ice Cream" any kind! It soothes the soul.....plus it's easy to smile when you're eatin' it!!
No excuses...lactose intolerent? sherbert....on a diet? frozen yogurt.. GO!! xxxxxxxxxxxxx ~Patty

That is wonderful news!!! Congratulations and as rob said Happy Birthday!!!
You made a new life for yourself for 20 years....how many of us can say that - and on something that is so hard to do.

Congratulations are in order .. 20 years worth of days... WTG!!

Aww Gloria never feel embarrassed hun and Never feel judged as you are inspiration for many many people. You had issues and you dealt with them to give you the opportunity to be able to make this post 20 years later. Had you not we probably would never have known you.

I admire you for what you did back then and for the confidence you have to be able to post about it. You will never be alone, and for the days when you feel you are just think about the fact you are still here and anyone of your friends here or at home will be there with a shoulder to cry on.

Well done hun you deserve it xxx

dont be sorry or embarassed about posting as like you said it really is a special day for you and you should be so proud of what you have achieved since those dark days...as someone who isn't really close to their family i know what you mean about feeling alone sometimes but these days i have my kids luckily and they are enough for me and i have learned that the rest of my family are no longer really important and its their loss that we rarely talk...and if you ever feel really down and need someone to talk to im sure their are several people in here that would talk through things if you feel down if you pm them as there are some really lovely and caring people in here... anyway enjoy your special day and i hope uou have many more in the future

Congratulations Gloria!!! 20 years? WOWWWW that is Awesome!!! I know its not been easy for you.

You're a very strong and determined woman to achieve this accomplishment and you should be very, very proud of yourself!!! I'm very proud of you and like I said above, I know its not been easy for you, as I went through this with my mother.

I'm so glad you shared this with us because yesterday was definitely a day that should be celebrated!!! And you did share it with your CC Family!!!

Congratulations hun!!!

Huge hugs!!!

Rita

Hi,


congratulations on your 20yrs sober that is a HUGE milestone hun and I for one am very proud of you

I took and Addictions and Community Services course and I don't know first hand what it's like but I do know from my course what it took for you to do stay sober for 20yrs...Sounds to me like you need to go back to AA and rejoin your friends and family there, as they understand and have been through the same if not worse than you hun...even if you don't go back on a regular basis, you know their support and spiritualality are ALWAYS available to you with the 12 steps program even after 20yrs...

You will be an inspiration to some who are just starting the program and perhaps you could even sponsor someone who needs you, due to your experience...

Gloria I'm not trying to counsel you or tell you what you should do as you know in your heart what needs to be done...especially if you're feeling that you've not done enough..I say this out of love for one of my Crusher sisters...

You are in my thoughts and prayers always and especially on this day as it's a HUGE milestone for you...

Hugs,

Sarah

You are a VERY BRAVE woman for doing this...my hats off to you hun...

Well done Gloria. You should be proud of yourself hun. I went through it with my mum after my dad died, she was given 6 months to live at 1 point if she didn't quit. It has been 10 yrs since she has had a drink and i tell her all the time that i'm proud of her and she should be proud of herself, its a hard addiction to conquer.

The funny thing now is she wont even eat steak n ale pie or anything like that, lol.

Keep smiling hun xxx

all i can say is WOW! that is a wonderful accomplishment gloria. i am very happy for you and sad at the same time because of your problems with your daughter. i know what that is all about. be proud of yourself and keep wavering on. the good lord has a plan for you and i believe everything will be ok in your family one day. congratulations my friend.

I want to thank you all. While reading your responses, it really touched me how much you care. I got tears in my eyes while I was reading. I cannot tell you how much it means to me to not feel so alone.

hi gloria , i just want to say thankyou for sharing with us -your special day,
congratulations on your 20th year of sobriety and you truly are an inspiration.
i am the daughter of an alchoholic and he has just recently come close to death with his drinking -yet six months on he is back drinking again,it is heart breaking but he is a grown man and will do what he wants but if he had done what you have 20 years ago - life would have been a lot different for my family, so WELL DONE and each day as it comes and never give up on trying to rebuild the relationship with your family.
god bless
melissax