I get really depressed every year during the holidays. I have issues with depression all year, but the holidays are the worst. This year I just didn't allow myself to think much about and suddenly, it was Christmas eve. I wasn't able to see any family, so I wasn't put in the position to have to pretend. However, I would have been able to if I had seen Samantha, but that didn't happen, I couldn't get out of bed until this afternoon. I am still struggling, but I am better than yesterday. I take things a day at a time, it is much easier that way. So, Christmas is over, I should feel OK now, but I don't.
The reason that I am sharing this is because I know that there are other people out there that have the same issue and I want you to know YOU ARE NOT ALONE!
Maybe this is not the place to be discussing such matters, but I think of you all as family. I am not looking for pity....I am just reaching out to anyone who may deal with the same issues.
They have a long article about it at WebMD: https://www.webmd.com/depression/features/25-ways-find-joy-balance-during-holidays#1
Thank you for taking the time to read this and allowing me to express myself.
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